everything falling into place nicely

been long since i updated this blog, wonder if anyone remembers this and still reading or checking back this every now and then..?

been really busy at work.. it's not like the days when i can always blog and finish up my work as well.. been really tired and busy, especially this period.. when the budgeting process is starting..

i shall not go too much into details about my work, cos it'll become very boring to read.. mainly complaints..

everything seems to be falling into place for me this year.. may applied for flat and i got it right away.. and i got my appointment to book my flat just before the trip in july.. went on a trip and the proposal comes into place.. the preparation starts and everything was paced nicely.. and once i settled the more important things, hdb contacted us to go sign the agreement for lease today.. and 2 days later we're going to select gowns and attires for our photoshoot.. just nice!

and i'll be busy with work again, and most likely photoshoot after cny.. going for a holiday trip to hong kong and macau in march, so most likely photoshoot before or just after that..

things has been falling nicely.. and i love this feeling of everything going as planned.. :) but i've been spending a lot of money with all the plannings etc.. sigh.. :( time to save!! bonus come quick!! :P

protective shield on

i've been giving in over and over again, but it seems like the person doesn't know or doesn't appreciate.. maybe the person doesn't feel that i'm giving enough..

i was unhappy, i was not feeling well, i was crying.. but i didnt get the warmth and console i wanted.. all i get is a "take care" and someone doesn't know what to do.. the only thing that person do is to disappear and sleep all the way, ignoring me, not reading my messages and not picking up my calls.. sounds like i gotta beg for some warmth and console when the person was the one who made me unhappy..

it's a small matter, but what i wanna see is the person trying to make things right and not make things worse..

i'm going to hide in my defensive protected zone.. my protective shield is on!

enough is enough.. i've done enough, be it you see it or not.. no one forced you.. you chose this path.. if this is what you want, so be it..

little updates for june 2011

been having headaches for the longest time ever.. don't know what's wrong with my head nowadays..

everything is falling into place.. applied for flat @ pasir ris, just opposite the mrt station.. gotten the queue number.. counting down to 3 weeks later.. selection of flat and holiday!

sooooo busy and sooooo many things to handle.. both work and personal.. i hope things will be better and better..

losing someone.. again..

i've lost someone, and i found him back.. but now, i think i'm losing it again..

the same person who made me utterly disappointed.. it's been a year plus.. been through so much and yet he still didn't learn anything from the things we've been through.. he changed.. not as caring, not as patient, not as good to me as before..

i gave myself and him a deadline.. will things become better? will things be back to what it's suppose to be?

sarcasm is not allowed in my world!!!!

someone made some comparative sarcasm remarks last night.. i was super upset and pissed off.. i decided to ignore that person until he find me.. but till now, that person is still missing from me..

i cannot be forever waiting for people.. waiting for them to find me, to contact me.. i cannot be forever the one who tries to solve things first.. i cannot be forever worrying for other people when they themselves don't even make an effort to think or make things right for themselves..

i'm tired.. tired of keep trying.. tired of the cycle repeating itself over and over again.. it's like never ending.. so i shall put a stop to this 恶性循环..

a pack week and a whole new life ahead

counting down 2 more working days after today's work.. super busy and packed with work recently, but am waiting for 2 more days, and i'm having a long break!

good friday long weekend plus 5 days leave and a labour day long weekend.. i'm soooooo happy..

thursday night going ktv with colleagues.. friday should be going dinner with my beloved dearies to celebrate mr and mrs mong's birthday.. saturday going out for dim sum and ktv to celebrate pk mama's birthday.. sunday having a planned but not confirmed dinner with the rsaf gang.. gatherings and birthday celebrations~~

and i'm soooooooo looking forward to the 3 days 2 nights mbs stay on monday! :) after checking out on wednesday, will be going back to pack for a 3 days 2 nights batam from thursday to saturday! :D

am looking forward to a new life ahead as well.. i'm sooooooo going to be determined to make things right and straight from today onwards!

good friday is this week.. if christ died for us for our sins, let my sins be washed away after this week..

从新做人！i shall not let myself and others down! looking forward to a simple new life, with my one and only BB!

promises

someone asked me what i want.. i told him i want nothing.. cos he doesnt know what i need is just a promise, an action from him..

but today i realised, no matter how much someone promise you to do something, it's actually really nothing to be happy about unless he do what he promise..

**random**

i suddenly missed the days where i can not wake up so early in the morning, knowing that i will definitely get to work on time, n having breakfast in the comfort of sitting in the car.. n of cos the non stop conversations is definitely better than having nothing to say at all..

someone asked me what i want from him.. i said nothing.. cos he doesnt know that the things i wanted, is something money cant buy.. it's a promise, it's an action.. i can only wait..

but i think it's better not to hope for anything than to be disappointed in the end..